Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Naked and Unashamed....

Those are not two words that I would usually put together... naked and unashamed. But this morning, I found myself naked and unashamed... before God that is. Last night in our Bible Study we talked about Adam and Eve in the garden, but they were naked and ashamed. God in his mercy and love stepped in to cover them with animal skins so that they would no longer be ashamed. Now, of course an innocent animal had to die so that they could be covered. But... that has been God's plan from the beginning. The innocent sacrificed for the sin of the guilty. Wow! What a hard concept. But... because Jesus (the innocent) was sacrificed for the sin of Lynn... I can now stand before God, covered (in his blood) and be unashamed. And that is where I stood this morning.

You know, God knows our hearts. He knows our thoughts. He knows our motives. And, He knows when we are playing a game. So this morning, I let down the fig leaves that I was covering myself with and told Him everything that was on my mind... and most every bit of it was not pretty... as a matter of fact... it was down right ugly. When we allow our heart and feelings to take over... things usually do turn out kind of ugly. Jeremiah the prophet tells us that our heart is deceitful above all things. (17:9) God pleads with us over and over in His Word to give Him our WHOLE heart. So I did. I said out loud all of the ugly things that had been playing out in my head since last night... actually over the last couple months. God can take our honesty. He already knows it for Pete's sake. Why pretend before Him??

In my study this morning... after I poured out my ugly to God... I read Exodus 14:19-20. Please let me share it with you...

Then the angel of God, who had been traveling in front of Israel's army, withdrew and went behind them. The pillar of cloud also moved from in front and stood behind them, coming between the armies of Egypt and Israel. Throughout the night the cloud brought darkness to the one side and light to the other side; so neither went near the other all night long.

Now... by itself, that really didn't get me pumped up. BUT... when Beth asked the question, "What enemy are you battling today?" "First, invite God to come between you and your enemy. Second, invite Him to open "the eyes of your heart" so that you will recognize Him at work. And third, count on Jesus; he never fails." Well... that is exactly what I did. I invited God to come stand between me and my feelings, between me and my frustrations, between me and my ugly. To open my heart and eyes to recognize Him at work....

AND... there you have it. He did exactly that. He led me to Hebrews 13:5. Now, I knew the last part of this verse from somewhere in my past, but I read the whole thing this morning.

"Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; Never will I forsake you"

Now, I would not call wanting to have enough money coming in to cover what needs to go out, a love of money. BUT... it has kept my mind captive for a while now. I sensed God telling me to be content where I am (not to like it or want to stay here forever) but be content to be in His will for me at this time. I remembered this verse saying, "I will never leave you." but it actually had the word "never" first... to me, that made such an impact. NEVER will I leave you.

So, there I stood naked and unashamed before God. Covered in the blood of His Son, Jesus. His cloud moved between me and my ugly... and shed His light on me. Took away the darkness in my heart and He will keep it from coming near to me again today. But you know what... He will want my WHOLE heart again tomorrow. He will want me to be naked and unashamed before Him again tomorrow. Thankfully... even though I am naked and unashamed before Him... I can keep my clothes on. I am sure that the other people in my family would prefer it that way.


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7 comments:

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

I always find confession good for the soul! Our words are safe with Him. We might as well go on and speak them; he knows them anyway. I always feel better after telling him about my upsets and issues, even when its just plain ugly talk. I know that you are loving this study. So many things came together for me in my understanding of the sacrificial way of worship.

Keep digging for the specific truth that God has for your current. I know that he's rocking your world.

peace~elaine

Leah W said...

lynn-

I stumbled onto your blog a few weeks ago-I don't remember from where-I just wanted to tell you Thank You for being honest with "us" about what is going on between you and God, at this point in my life it is lady bloggers like you that are helping me grow along with you!

Leah

Mommyluann said...

I just finished up Beth Moore's study Breaking Free last night. I came away with some thought provoking things too.

Thanks for sharing...timely for me my friend.

Amanda said...

Ahhh... rain. Good stuff Lynn. All smiles... funny about keeping the clothes on! :) I'm sure mine does too! :)

Amanda B. said...

Confession and contentment...my lessons for this week, too. Good post.

Tracy said...

Lynn,
Wow. This was powerful (and convicting). How important that we give God our WHOLE heart. What humbling comes as a result of confessing our "ugly" to God. Thank you for continuing to share what God is showing you through this study.
Blessings,
Tracy

Kelly said...

I started reading this post when you first posted it, but was getting interrupted and I could tell it was one I would want to read when things were quiet and I had time to reflect. I am glad I came back to finish it... so blessed by what you wrote here. My heart is feeling tugged toward spending a similar time with God. Thanks for sharing it, friend.
~Kelly