Monday, March 23, 2009

Struggles with flesh....

I love it when God answers my prayers... just like I had hoped He would. But... it sure is a bummer when He decides to do things His way. I have been dreading this day for about three weeks now. I have prayed about it many, many, many times. This morning... I just bombarded His throne with my request. My request soon turned to begging. I so needed Him to intervene in this certain situation. For many different reasons... one for simplicities sake. Another for my daughter and her peace of mind. Another one for the other people that would be involved. But I soon realized that the biggest reason was my pride. Yippie.... those pride panties again. I thought I tried to take those off this morning. I so wanted to be more concerned and compassionate for my daughter and the others involved. But seeing how my flesh jumped in there and reacted.... and think it was my pride that won out. Gee, I really hate it when I do that.

I am so comforted by Paul's struggle with sin. In Romans 7:15 Paul says this...

"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do... I do not do, but what I hate... I do.

My reactions and attitude certainly prove his next statement...

"I know that nothing good lives in me, that is in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out."

"When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God's law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war at work within my members. What a wretched man I am!! Who will rescue me from this body of death?? "

Then my favorite part....

"Thanks be to God- through Jesus Christ our Lord."

I am so glad that Paul had this struggle. I am so glad that he was obedient enough to tell us about it.

Can I just say that I will still bless the Lord even though this day didn't turn out like I had hoped. After my fit... and my tears... and my bad attitude.... Jesus is still there... waiting to make me whole again. Thanks be to God!

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6 comments:

Paula (SweetPea) said...

I can totally relate to begging God. Unfortunately, (or rather fortunately after we accept it) He does do it His own way and He doesn't give into our pride like He might give into our concern.

I, too, love that God loves us so much that He provided such wisdom in His Word. Can you imagine living back in the Bible times and not having the Word?

Come visit me. I miss ya.

Cricket said...

Lynn
It's such a joy to hear from you...I also enjoy our facebook friendship...(even though I'm not all that into it)...

God is amazing. I too am struggling with prayer issues I suppose maybe pride issues.

Keep on for HIM, he loves us so.

Tess :)

jcdisciple said...

I think that passage is one of the most comforting reassurances that you cannot lose your salvation. If so...we'd be losing it and regaining it and losing it and regaining it...oh what a workout that would be for God!! After years of having satan lie to me about that...I stand firm on God's word now that it is in my heart and mind that I desire WHOLE HEARTEDLY to serve Him and Please HIm, but my flesh fights me on every turn!! Another reason for rejoicing in heaven...no more repenting!!! Praise God Hallelujah...I won't stray from the streets of gold up there!!

Love you girl...praying for you in your struggles!

Beverly said...

Ir may not have turned out like you had hoped, but it turned out the way God wanted it to. His answer may not be ready to be answered yet, so hang in there and if He wants to answer it differently He will show you when!

Love you my sister! and I'm praying for you...

Libby said...

We always want to tell God the best way to fix something...We humanly still want to be in control. But look at it this way...He sees the WHOLE picture, and can see everything He has in store for us....shouldn't follow His lead and not our own??
I struggle with this DAILY, trust me!
Love ya lady!

Tracy said...

Lynn, I SO love your honest heart...it never fails to challenge me. Take my word for it, I wear those "pride panties" far more often than I care to admit. So often I've thanked the Lord for being willing to love me according to my need and not my desires (unless they're in line with His will). I'm also so grateful that He allowed us to know the failings of those who walked closest to him. I'm with ya...there is such encouragement in that!

Sending hugs and prayers your way,
Tracy